before

before words became bruises,

before your hand was a weapon, 

before my shirt lost its white,

and before tears were my food,

you were my father

and i was your son.

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table

looking down through his glass 

he saw where the tears of wine

had left their stains of disappointment 

deep inside the splinters of a broken table.

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plan b

old shadows 

that hover over the rocks and stones

in front of him

lead him with the wicked echos of regret

that his life had only become

his plan b.

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huckleberry

with a carnival balloon in hand

and paper banjos playing softly beside the river

he walked home,

pausing only for a moment

to released the fictional helium hope

of ever finding his own huckleberry …

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wasted

the pile of faded out t-shirts

that sit silent in the corner of an empty room

still have the scented memories 

of his wasted kisses, lost loves,

and the absent knowing

of how to feel something for someone.

                                                                         

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yesterday’s

a soul torn in half

both cold and broken

takes pictures in the dark

of yesterday’s closing door.

 

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season

enduring the season

where wine numbs the hurt,

his feet push down old memories of missed loves

deep into the coarse shelled sand

where tides quickly wash away …

another year passed alone.

                                                                           

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caffeine

 

surrounded by caffeine and smoke,

he painted his portrait 

in the misty colors of his personal mythology

to obscure the bruises and scars

only visible to him.

 

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jealous

 thickly layered and fragile

he sat in his safe space

framed by the things he’d become.

jealous for never taking chances

or challenging his truths

made of glue and antiseptic.

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